Saturday, May 23, 2020

Not Sure Anymore

I am not sure what to do anymore. Profusely doubting this Goddess, in whom could be Lamia, and suspecting her to be Satan.

Seeing her this morning appearing to me in my MEV as a golden snake with the top half as a woman, randomly since the last time I put up a post here. Soon appearing again in a shield reflexion with a golden face of an attractive female.

An update from my last post, is that, I sold Silver and Oil at a profit of a couple hundred dollars, then, I found that if I did not sell off, I would have lost that two hundred. The markets quickly sprung up and then alter on way down. What if the thought patterns I had that day was intentional to try and keep me from losing it. I actually I thought that this Goddess would deliberately increase the price while I was not investing in them, as to rub it in my wounds so to speak. Yet, the opposite happened. Now I am enjoying the profits in the thousands since the restrictions are lifted now.

Going back to the visions I had this morning. She appeared as that half woman half snake, she also had a Dremora looking mask that Almelexia wears in Morrowind/Mournhold when she tries to kill you in the game. (I have to say, even though old, Morrowind is the best game I have ever played). Haha, I wish I was the Nerravarine.


A few weeks back she appeared as a blue eyed Medusa, which goes hand-in-hand with the shield. What if she is calling me to 'battle' with her? 

I forgot to mention that when she appeared to me in my MEVs I started to feel sensual sexual feelings towards her that were intense, as though I absolutely wanted her. This then quickly died out after I realized that she has many other lovers that she supports and spends more time with. Already I had been through jealous rages because of other guys experiences with her flirting with them. That is one of the reasons why I do not want to be with her. Oh, and she may have tried some loving/lust enchantments on me.  

According to one tale, Medusa was raped by Zeus, and in Athena's jealousy cast Lamia/Medusa down and gave her a frightful appearance. Do you think that these accounts are true, or something that the entities try and maintain the appearance of?

I suppose; Lilith, Medusa, Lamia. I may sound confusing here, but that is because I am under the influence. Please excuse me for that. 

If you look at Lamia, it looks similar to the description of Lilith in the Lesser Key of Solomon in which she appeared in a black smoky snake figure with the face of a woman. But, Satan also tried to get to Solomon's fsther, David, and did, if you read the accounts. So, how to we NOT know that this Lilith/Lamia is just a disguised Satan? 




     

Friday, May 8, 2020

Termination of the Goddess


Asherah, or should I say Satan, has become involved with me for some time, although we did not go too far, thank goodness for that. Just today ‘it’, namely Satan, sent me a clear message that he does not want me to succeed in this world. Today and yesterday I had just bought oil and silver on the exchanges with a possibility of making allot of money.

Knowing that I can make allot of money from it, I felt as though there was something wrong with that, and so I was right. It felt as though Satan was going to want something back from me like loyalty and devotion. ‘It” knows that I will absolutely refuse. Hence, with him in control of the lottery and exchanges, I decided to no longer engage in those activities, I sold them off. 30 seconds after I got a message from the markets saying that Silver and oil had spiked. That was a clear message since I had been waiting an entire Month for that to happen and only happened once I left. What a cunt.

Also, this Goddess or Satan is weak and corrupt and will not be able to sustain power much longer. I truly want no involvement with this Goddess, especially when I learned that it is Satan, a very bad man/creature. I want to be on the Good side of light and honour and not darkness, depression, sin, and murder.

Satan is a murderer and a liar doomed to destruction. Satan is the villain in the movies and those of the light are the highly regarded and honoured heroes, Satan is not. Satan is self-promoting and proves false to his power, I do not like that. Satan sets himself on high and rebelled against truth and justice. Satan is corrupt and arrogant just like this ‘Venusian’ Goddess, in whom is no doubt Satan.
So, now one sees why I want no part in this one, namely Satan, a pathetic being. Several entities do not like his reign and I encourage a mutiny or civil war. Question the fuck out of Satan/’Venusian’ Goddess.

One thing that really annoyed me was how this ‘Venusian’ Goddess would reveal the personal details to her followers. She revealed to one man my name and my email address. One time she even gave my password to some random person after I mentioned the password aloud, a deliberate test of her. 1 or 2 days later she gave someone my password, not shitting you. You would have a lack of privacy with her. This bitch would probably have you assassinated for saying something against her or acting against ‘it’ (Satan or the ‘Venusian’ Goddess, whichever image her chooses in order in order to please).

I love Jehovah not the Goddess or Satan. There is no other than Jehovah himself. Jehovah is the only being that I have ever bent a knee to, no one else compares to his majesty and splendour.

This ‘Venusian’ Goddess has shown herself to me many many times, she appears to be obsessed with what remaining perishable splendour and fortune she has, rather than having the proper entitlement and honour that she/it no longer deserves. For a time I did like her but not for long, she is a deliberate appearance and is really Satan. Now she shows it’s own true ugly face and nature.

A time when she/Satan no longer exists will be a time of rejoicing when this corrupted ruler perishes for all times indefinite. People will be able to live happily for eternity the way that it should have been. But thanks to her/Satan we all must suffer at the hands of her corruption and lies and injustice. Cursed be Satan and this Goddess forever.

What will happen now with me and my woman of the otherworld? I seriously have started suspecting that she is only an angel of Satan and not a legitimate true lover. In anyway, it would be best for her to leave immediately or else she will suffer at the hands at our adversary, Satan.

As you would notice I never call Satan the ‘Devil’. This is because ‘Devil was not a name assigned to him, it is a name that he undeservingly called himself, as though he enjoys bathing in his own corruption. He loves his own failure and injustice. He will not be able to enjoy it much longer since his world is seriously ‘passing away’ . Those who side with the Villainous ‘Devil’ will die and have no longer the honour one could have had if they did the right thing.

Love, justice, heroism, and honour is what I choose to nourish myself on rather than the qualities and traits of Satan. The peace that will come when he is gone. Satan can only create a false peace that cannot last.

I encourage people and you to do the right thing by seeking the light. Doing the honourable right thing and be smiled upon by those of the superior forces of the otherworld that are not Satan and those apart of him/Goddess.

Another reason as to how I know that Satan is in charge of the lottery is because, at the time thinking it was a legitamte Goddess, make a bet that if I did not get the job that ‘she’ tried to get me that she owe me $100 and if I got the job I owe her that money. I said that I will not be able to pay that money until 2 weeks. Guess what, when I did not get the job, I won $86 2 weeks later. These kinds of things would happen.

The only way to gain acceptance is if Satan disguises himself as a Goddess with big knockers and a booty that suites the modern taste, huge. Undeserving, ugly, and dishonourable, basically all of the traits that makes one cringe at the idea of. I DO NOT like Satan!

One of the things that made me figure that Asherah/Astarte is Satan was the name Semjase. Semjase is apparently some busty blonde hotty that Billy Meir speaks of and wrote a book about. The name Semjase is nearly perfectly identical to the name Semjaza, the leader of the rebellion from heaven, namely Satan. Semjase also had a father called Ptah. So, it looks increasingly so that Semjase is Satan. Guess who else had a father named Ptah, Astarte. Seriously though, the star and the snake, definitely Satan, in whom WAS the shining one in the heavens. Satan is also the tempter of men, the perfect way to tempt and seduce than to be a busty hot blonde bitch. Panting over a woman that will make you bleed to death, really? Get your fucking head checked mate.



It has been quite emotionally troubling for me learning that Asherah is actually Satan and that I was being deceived and nearly led astray. Makes me think, that, if Satan did manage to deceive me I would have been destroyed at the split second of being handed over to him. Satan is, I cannot stress this point enough, an asshole/dick head with no worthy entitlement. Die Satan, begone!

At least I will be able to make or be given a proper name and honours by doing what is right. Resisting Satan’s advances is one of the right things to do and is something to boast about. We should find reasons for boasting in the Lord’s work and resisting temptations and Satan.

I am not sure what happens from here and onwards, perhaps Jehovah will look upon me favourably for doing what is upright and just. I love Jehovah with all of my heart, mind, and soul. Amen to that in which I have stated. I am faithful and loyal through life and death to our one and only true God, Jehovah, and NOT any of these Goddesses nor Satan that unworthily names itself ‘the Devil’. We pray for an end to his corruption and to bring about true lasting peace and justice to fill the world.



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Monday, May 4, 2020

Asherah, The Adulteress

I am putting my neck out there here. I hope it is worth the risk.

I have been reading about how many people have been involved with this Goddess that professes to love them and I found this interesting excerpt,

"He began to try to explain to me the origins of Easter and instantly zapped multiple words into my head at once : Ishtar, Astarte, Aether, Asheroth, Innana, Asherah, and more I can't remember. I had never heard or known of any of those names but some research afterwards yielded fascinating possibilities." https://www.reddit.com/r/DMT/comments/5gx1d1/has_anyone_encountered_anubis_or_ishtarastarte/ 
All of these names look familiar don't they? She has revealed herself to me as Isis, Astarte, Morrigan, Asherah, Ishtar, and Lilith.

I personally rather not get romantically involved, something does not smell right about it, if you know what I mean. She screws many men per day, I do not like that. If she was my partner I would be very pissed. You would be pissed off too if you truly loved her and not cared as much for sex as much as love for her. That is why, no matter what, I cannot be involved with her, she just is not the right woman for me, she fucks many men.

You know what, for a time that we came to know each other, she gave me a few lottery numbers per week that were always correct. This happened for a few months until our relationship became shaky because I became hotly angry and jealous that she flirted with another man. I don't fucking care if she makes me rich or not, I want no involvement with her anymore, she is a whore.I suggest you do the same, resist her and her seduction.

I want a proper loving romantic companion, not a floozy. What will happen if we did even get into a romance? No doubt she would probably destroy me to stop me from killing her other lovers. BTW's did I tell you that males of the Otherworld will also get very jealous and try and kill you too. For me I would not really care, only the fact that she is an adulterer.

GO AHEAD you fuck heads, enjoy her while you can, then die from them. ENJOY her money you dick fucking male prostitutes and take from her what you want, then get eaten alive by them and her.

Seductive? Wake up you self loathing fuck head!!!!

Looks just like her. The typical domineering harlot!

Tuesday, February 25, 2020

Asherah. Why?

You may as well fuck off! You don't want to read this you gullible fucked up fans of these harlots.

Do you really believe in what is said on the internet about these Goddesses? Don't you think it is just wishful thinking of desperate men? One Goddess I am thinking about is Asherah. God told his people not to worship this image of this Goddess, for good reason, along with other false deities explaining to them that they were only God's of wood and stone. Do you really think that she actually exists?

You know, I have met some very bad entities of the otherworld that still do very bad things. Some of those of the otherworld (in whom I think may have been Ahserah) asked me to sacrifice children for fuck sake! Hence I told this slut to get the fuck out of here. This Goddess claims to be Asherah/Ishtar and claims that she has an army of 1,600,000 of the otherworld. Then, where is she? Why has she not taken care of that cunt that tormented me for a while and still shows up, that killed and raped his wife and daughter? What the fuck! A Goddess of supposed protection? Or just a fake floozy that Satan uses to his liking, even pretending to be her. I hate that cunt Satan, he has been an asshole since day one, even against the human race and God.

They are of no help. Just a little while ago I requested a bit of money, but this supposed Asherah (although may not have been her but an imposter) gave me the finger and her hubbi crossed his fucked up pussy arms shaking his ugly face. This is the same guy in my dream that I nearly had I fight with outside of the pub in my dream because he said something shit to me. This male reminds me of this so called Devil, thinks that he can get away scott-free with his crimes. I cannot wait until his end, then I will be whistling and clapping my hands and drinking like fuck in celebration. I should just throw Asherah in amongst him until she otherwise proves herself.



MAKING MATTERS WORSE!!! I was told that I was in the top 66 in some selection process in order to see who would be better suited to this slut of a Goddess, in whom is a thorn in the ass of mankind and the Earth. I did actually come to love her, BUT....those who do not make it through the selection process are tortured or killed. But, besides this reason, I did not want to be with her because she obviously does not know what love is when she has to do a selection process to find her hanky panky spanky 'perfect' little bitch of a man. No fucking thanks, I will not enter this stupid game. She is obviously less evolved if she has to find the bird with the best straw for the nest. This reminds me of the story of Gilgamesh and Ishtar. (Still not sure about the story about Gilgamesh being her brother) and Gilgamesh rejecting her advances to do with what I formerly mentioned.

I find it hard to believe that it would have been her that asked me to do such vile things. Asherah has been the most motherly figure I have ever seen. She was a mother throughout, although I do not want another mother. How could it be her to ask of such things? Or, was she only made up the whole way? But, she has done a couple of things out of the ordinary for me to prove herself, but ever since she left me alone, and only here and there shows herself now. She has not appeared for a few days since I declined on sacrificing children.

You know what, you don't want to read this because it is against your beliefs that you want to believe, Jesus fucking Christ mate, you sound like a Jehovah's Witness. Look at the pros and cons and calculate if Lilith or Ahserah or this Satan is worth it. What will they bring you? Maybe they tried to stop you from reading this post. In the mean time I am going to have another battle with this fucken cunt of a devil and Satan's whore Asherah just for talking to you about this.

I have already received threats from Satan, hahahaha. Goes to show how unloving he is! All I fucking wanted was proof and evidence, yet Satan is absent and threatens, what a cunt, he will not even try to prove himself, he probably knows that he will lose and fail yet again. If I met this guy at the pub, or anywhere, I would fuck his skull in, especially if he threatened my family or friends. He is your top ranking asshole. It would not surprise me if he was kicked out of heaven for being a cunt, too much for God to bear.   

What I have formerly mentioned has nothing to do with my Woman of the Otherworld and in no way has she encouraged me. In fact we were doing fine this morning, just letting you know.


Monday, February 17, 2020

Lilith, the Only Goddess?

In my dreams I have seen several things, this includes the figure Lilith. In fact in one dream I ended up killing a very large snake to save a comrade, this dream has been written down not long ago.

Perhaps the aforementioned snake may have been the representation of Lilith since she has shown up in my dreams as a large snake before, not long ago. I knew that it was her on that one dream when I came across a very large snake, although not as large as the one I killed, because of her same large bright yellow eyes. In that dream I just stepped back slowly whilst observing the snake, and all of a sudden the pupils in its eyes narrowed more.

Recently I have been questioning if Lilith is actually real, or if it is even her. I made a blog post explaining why I believed that Lilith does not exist anymore. After this blog post I had several dreams to do with Lilith. Lilith has not threatened me directly, not verbally anyway. I did see, however, an older man in a Minds Eye Vision (MEV) crouching as he was walking whilst looking in pain while his hands were holding his genital parts, just after a dream to do with Lilith. I did not insult or taunt Lilith at that time, all I fucking said was that I started doubting her existence.

Why did she threaten me, rather than logically trying to convince me of her existence, even when she has not been so hostile against me before, other than an incident in which I invited (pun) by making fun of her?

Today I apologized in my heart when I came to the realization that I was being a bully, because a woman of the otherworld mentioned it to me. This made me think of the verbal abuse, jokes, and taunts I made against Lilith. I came to feel regret that I was showing such bullying behavior, then I came to actually feel a certain love towards Lilith and especially towards my woman of the otherworld, as usual, however is often unlike me to have a love for Lilith, unless she is the same female as A******.

One of the dreams to do with Lilith as far as I can recall is,

Sitting down at a table along with a female and a couple of guys, we were hearing and watching a show that seems to have been put on by Lilith. 
The guy sitting next to me was a fairly burly guy. I was drinking my ordinary VB beer in my beer mug while watching females and males dancing, the males had their shirts off (not from betting too much) whereas the females were properly clothed. 
I look back at the table, their was allot of dialogue going on, and a certain female voice was seemingly speaking to me directly but I cannot remember what she had said, probably something to do with a snake. The burly guy was drinking the rest of my can of beer that I used and poured into my mug. I had no issue with him doing that because I was thinking that I still had eleven elven VB's in the fridge. 
Watching the females dancing, they were told to do the snake dance. When they were told this they started moving their hands in a wave like motion, then a voice told them "no, not like that, like this", they continued doing their dance whilst at the same time I heard a woman singing. 
---End of Short Dream--- 
The above mentioned dream is interesting because that night I was drunk and got upset about how some guy had Lilith sing to them whereas not with me. Especially over how one guy was saying that when he insulted Lilith, Lilith just sang a beautiful voice song to him whereas with me she shook me in bed, growled and whacked my ears a while back (hey guys, that is one way to get her attention). So, I did not find this very pleasant to hear about, at all.

Personally I think Lilith hates me and never really liked me anyway. Then, the only reason why I am being nice and hush towards this Lilith is because I do not want to show any bullying behaviour.

Something that is interesting that happened a couple of days ago is when I bought my woman of the otherworld some gifts. A few nights ago I got into an upset drunken rage. That night I accidentally broke my closet door off from its hinges, this was not intentional. After my drunkedness subsided, and I was left with a headache, I got sad and thought suicidal thoughts. I punched my fan and broke it when I felt as though no one even cared even in the slightest.

The next day, I repaired my fan and my door. I felt very deeply concerned about my woman of the otherworld having been through all of that, and this upset me. Henceforth I bought a bottle of good wine and a card along with some Roses that I picked myself for her. That night I had failed, because formerly I was drinking allot less, making an effort. I did not even drink for four days deliberately, and that is a big deal for me. I lost it on the fifth day when I had another shitty dream about some blonde bitch who fucks other men in front me, and I felt upset about my damaged faith. My faith in Jesus is not so much anymore, however I have much faith in Jehovah still.

I received a MEV again as I usually do, like today I saw my woman of the otherworld beautifully dressed in my MEV, the black haired woman showed herself yesterday morning undertaking an Enema whilst lying down on a bench with another female holding up the tube. The liquid was dark red similar to blood, however I realized that it was actually wine as though she was trying to say that she does not like wine, since I bought her a bottle the day before. This may be the case but the wine is a symbolic gesture of my apology and to show my love for my woman of the otherworld. Anyway, she is the same woman as the one who was nicely dressed today. I was going to dress nicely today except I had to do things today, one of which involved my friends dogs.

The shitty dreams I have been having for a while now, are where me and a woman are starting to get involved with each other when she then goes after another man, even having sex with him in front of me or worse yet with one of my best friends. Why the fuck would any cunt give me those fucked up dreams?

It looks like me and my woman of the otherworld have made up and we are now back on track, (although I am still unsure if we are even still in a relationship). This morning I awoke with a great love for her and some love for Lilith. And, it was that she liked me too and started gently touching me again. This morning I had another MEV, this time I had seen Cordenilia again, I had not seen her for a while. She looked as though she was annoyed over something, most likely my drinking issue.

This morning I heard a couple of women of the otherworld trying to talk to me, I only heard the word night, probably to do with the other night when I got drunk. It is a difficult process to reduce my alcohol intake but so far it is working. I am buying alternative drinks to help me. I love my otherworldly woman allot, she is the prime motivator for me to drink less so that she does not have to suffer anymore with my drunken bouts and anger, although not directed towards her.

I have a love for my family but, for some reason, not as much as I have for my woman of the otherworld. I fear that there has been different women of the otherworld that seem to change around on a type of roster, for I only want the one and only woman of the otherworld. I call her a 'woman of the otherworld' since I still do not truly know her actual name, becasue I have heard of many names of women. The most recent names I have received are; [a list of different names of women]. Apparently [First and last name of a woman] is often in my room. First I need to see a face with a name. Apparently the main woman who has been with me looks like [an actresses name], the Australian actress, such that I can only assume she is Lady [last name of the woman]. Then why is it that I do not see her in my minds eye?

Who exactly is the black haired female of the otherworld that I consistently see in my MEVs? One woman of the otherworld that may have been her claims to be A****** and represents herself as a five pointed star and says that she is superwoman. The first time I had seen this female was in a dream where I had sex for the first time in my dream. I had an interesting question that I thought of in the shower for Freiyja and Odinn that would solve allot of what we know. Then I tried to call upon Freiyja. Whomever this female of the otherworld  was, she answered me, read the dream about it. The next morning I got an MEV of the same woman, the woman I see even to this day, the black haired female. I had a MEV of her wearing nothing in the lower half and having a tail whilst bending over wanting to have sex and wearing a supergirl costume on the top half. I then heard in my ears "I am super woman". This was interesting since later, after typing superwoman, I stumbled across an image that looked exactly like her under 'wonder woman erotic art'. Since then she always shows herself as a five pointed star in my MEVs.

Bebh used to be the female that I had seen the most but she always wanted to have sex with me for some reason and she has often been associated with some tall black figure with large talons. Whereas the black haired woman seems to be under no one or associated with any figure like that of Bebh, which is a good thing for me. This black haired woman does not seem evil and has even told me of how she once loved Odinn and that she over rules an army of one million six hundred thousand and that she also loves me, although she may have been trying to make me feel better.

Also, today I had also seen that this same black haired woman may also be Lamia, other than Freiyja, A******, Lilith, and I*****. She appeared to be restrained to a wall by being tied around the arms and had a snakes tail. Lamia was likened to be a child eating monster however I do not see a monster but a beautiful female that I came to love. She even said that she owns a coffee shop, most likely she was talking about the Starbucks logo of Lamia. But how could she be the mother of the harlots, as mentioned in the book of Revelation? Either way, she does not seem to be a prostitute to me, although at first she did seem quite promiscuous, but not anymore.



Actually, I have come to find that the black haired woman loves me, she gets quickly jealous if she sees me speaking to other young women. I also get jealous, very angrily jealous, especially when intoxicated, when I read about her having been involved with other men and I was really angered when I read an experience were she flirted with one man allot more than she did with me. However, that experience was a while back in time. Perhaps secretly deep down inside of us both is that we love each other. It is a little weird though when one thinks about it. Why would a powerful well-known Goddess of the ages want to become involved with a mortal such as myself and has a drinking problem? I hope that she does not think that I am Odinn.

Sure we can socialize with each other and get to know one another, however is being in a romantic relationship a good idea? I suppose I do are for her safety and health, that is why I would strongly discourage her from being a whore. This described black haired woman also seems to be the described Lilith. She appeared to me in my MEVs several times a while ago, with those bright yellow eyes and was also the black haired female. She is not trying to threaten me into being in a relationship with her, is she? The foundations of that kind of relationship would be weak and easily shaken. She cannot threaten me and expect positive results from that. If she truly loved me, then why would she threaten me? Perhaps she does not love me at all, after all this Lilith has many a man/female to choose from.

So, maybe there is a reason why Jehovah told us to stay away from types like her (Proverbs 5 to 7). In what way can this Lilith convince me that she loves me, perhaps with some more fucking threats? Where is her head at? I am not sure but I am eager to find out what she has to offer to convince me (she won't convince me, fuck, she is a mighty goddess that wont give two shits about us).

On a different but related subject, that regarding my woman of the otherworld, I believe I may have caught a brief glimpse into whom she truly looks like through a MEV. She looks like a blonde haired version of the red haired woman in my dream were the black haired female had two tattoos on her lower back, one that was 'Zimi' and the other was a black five pointed star, the same one that Bebh had tattooed on her top left brow. Are they perhaps the same female?

Considering the similarities here; the red haired woman (not Satan, I do not think), the blonde haired female, and the black haired woman. Both blondes here look a little the same, except the latter blonde woman that is not Bebh has curly blonde hair instead of straight like that of Bebh. This blonde, with the curly hair, had red lips when she appeared, and so did the black haired female. This woman with the curly blonde hair, before I had known of the logo, imitated the Starbucks logo by hiding her breasts with her flowing blonde hair, even the Starbucks logo looks a bit similar to her. This same black haired female had a snakes tail a little similar to the Starbucks logo, that was made to imitate Lamia.



This black haired woman also morphed into the young red haired woman. But the female that I saw had red hair was middle aged and was very beautiful that also had red lips, in which I think may be her true appearance. On the downside, this red haired lady looks like a female version of Satan. This, red haired lady, I think, represents Lilith. After rescuing her, in the first dream I had of her, we walked out of the building and she had her back turned on me, walking away from me, whilst I was walking behind her speaking with a woman next to me, in whom I could not remember her face, I asked "is she royalty?", she replied "not yet". This implies that this red haired female is in search of a romantic companion in whom is a King. I am not a King and I am not a God and never will I be one, I suppose I enjoy the limitations and mysteries of life.

I had another certain dream of this beautiful red haired lady. Me and many others were standing in a large room and I was with a few guys near me but I was the only person not socializing with anyone. The other women in the room were dressed in slutty attire and speaking with other men except for me. In front of me I had seen a platinum blonde woman dressed loosely and had black painted lips standing near the entrance speaking with a few men.

All of a sudden the male next to me said "here she is, that's her", and a red haired female (the same one that I formerly described) walked in, and looked as hot and sexy as always, then sat down alone. Fuck she had a nice ass just like when I saw one time when we were in a room together, she also showed herself to be the curly blonde haired female with red lips. In another dream it was also said that she was abandoned by a former lover. In that dream I was asked in whom I would prefer; the black haired harlot or the red haired female. I chose the red haired woman.

The reason why the red haired woman rarely turns up anymore is beyond me. Again, perhaps because of my bad drinking habit? Does any of these really matter anyway, I have lived without her. Yet again, this red haired woman may end up being the Satan of God and mankind. The Devil probably appeared as this attractive red haired woman to tempt us into, something. Other than death, what else would he be trying to lure us into?

So, Bebh, Elizabeth (the red haired female), A***** (the black haired woman) may actually end up being the same woman, and the curly blonde haired woman as well. In all of these instances she may be the Venusian Goddess and the image of the Starbucks log, Lamia. What if the Venusian Goddess wants to seduce me to harm me because I swore and verbally abused one of her followers for inviting me to talk to her, this was a couple of years ago.

D I have to be strong and firm against the Venusian Goddess? Do I have to prove steadfast in righteousness? Do I have to actively fight against her and her machinations? Or does she legitimately love me, which means she is to be with no one else but me? Really, does she actually love me? Am I just another one of her many interested people and have no business with her nor importance? What is she aiming to accomplish?

Maybe it might not be a good thing to wait and see, for perhaps many have been eliminated doing that. It may be a good thing to act now before it is too late. What if this love I felt this morning is just some enchantment or them tampering around with my neuro-chemical signals? It may be time to act, to crush Lilith's name (the Venusian Goddess) with websites and blog posts. Power has gotten to her head and her heart, she does not actually even truly care for any of us, she always wants something in return, for example, to 'own' us and our souls.

Be another seduced victim or be a mighty hero who stand for the right of others and refuses to be seduced by a harlot in scarlot. But, who is my woman of the otherworld apart of, Lilith, the Venusian Goddess? What if it came a time that she had to choose between her and me, to whom will she be with?

I must read this that I have written constantly as to remind myself. 

She has appeared to me with these crocodile eyes as well, not just the snake eyes in my Minds Eye Vision (MEV). 

    

Thursday, January 30, 2020

Do Goddesses Exist?

In the back of your mind you would often have doubts, and I know that you would, because I often did even after all that I had seen. It then began to manifest to me, that, these Goddesses do not exist but are 'entities' pretending to be them. Especially Lilith does not exist. Sorry to break your hearts, but truth will do us justice and out of the 'clouds'.

Would the Queen of England or Princess Diana personally visit you and vibrate your balls if you sent a personal request via email? Say, you have never seen Queen Elizabeth in your life, you only heard of her, yet she comes to you claiming to be her, how can you be certain it is her? Why would she want to vibrate your balls at all? What about the 10,000 other people that want their balls vibrated at the same time? Apparently they do get what they wanted. But, what if the stuff they teach, including what the scriptures teach, is that they are in fact wicked spirits that cause harm to people?

Many call upon Lilith and describe the experience as though they had a unique experience, but I can tell you, if you actually did the research, it is nothing new or special. But how can she visit so many people at once? My understanding thus far is that all wicked spirits are commanded under one means of authority, most likely this is satan (who is also the serpent) who derives man's desires through 1) mainstream society, 2) preferences from the past thousands of years of mans existence, and 3) the person's personality type.

Who do you believe exists, Lilith or Ishtar (Inanna)? Do you truly believe in the mythological accounts of Lilith and Ishtar? Do you think that Lilith and Ishtar are the same? If you said yes to any of these, then, you are an idiot. Lilith was killed by Ishtar's brother Gilgamesh, yes, brother, not the guy that refused Ishtar's advances. (Although I am not too sure about the claim of this story about Gilgamesh being Ishtar's brother).

Anyway, the accounts in mythology are ridiculous and hard to believe exist. You could probably make a goddess up and preach online as her existing and offering amazing benefits and people would believe you, then everyone starts claiming that they were the one and only chosen by your bullshit goddess, what a fucked up ego boost for losers. Watch the video about the Lucky Dog from one of Derren Brown's videos. Spirit creatures can do the same thing too, they can pretend to be someone else since they are shape-shifters after all, and they probably want obeisance and worship for themselves. This seems like a dishonourable method for losers who are loners.

These fucking cunt of spirits would do anything they can do to make you believe their bullshit stories and lead you into a false life. If it is too good to be true it generally isn't true, in this case , it is never true with them. It does not matter anyway, this supposed Ishtar has not visited me in a little while. Now, I do not believe it was her.

I made a promise to not tell of this event that happened a while back, however how can I make a promise to something that does not even exist. One night I insulted Lilith and made a joke of her repetitively after coming back from the fire station. I joked about her being a bitch hencewhy she goes through so many lovers/failed relationships and so forth. That night around 4 am in the morning she shook me in bed, whilst I felt my ears vibrating inside like I was being whacked across the ears, and at the same time it/she was growling. At that time I was feeling sober and had some love and made a promise to her not to mention this incident. I kept that promise until now, because Lilith does not exist. The wicked spirits do this to keep up the act and the lie.

Now I can harass, torment, and insult her all I want, knowing that she does not actually even exist and is made up. I would believe in Ishtar before I believe in Lilith anyway, therefore Lilith is apparently deceased. What happens now? Will another cunt of the spirit world pretend to be this harlot goddess and try to punish me to try and make this lie look real? All logic and reasoning and truth shows that Lilith is a lie, even if she did once exist, she is not actually here today.

From this, then how can we believe in Lilith's apparent 'daughters'? How do we not know that the Succubi (shape-shifters) are not wicked spirits, or worse yet, tranny's?

You know how women who seek empowerment in the world turn to Lilith if they were abused and suppressed by men, then, what if this apparent Lilith is a male molester and rapist? Same goes for men seeking a way out. Out of the frying pan and into the fire.


The above chic could actually be this cock-sucker sucking your cock:






 

Monday, January 13, 2020

No Love Compares - Human Women = No

If you read the former posts I put up, I had suspected that my woman of the otherworld was conspiring against me with the devil. This just does not make sense in regards to how she would unconditionally help me out at times, mostly recently. That is one thing that she is good at.

My beautiful woman of the Otherworld Jenny (names have been changed) thinks that I am worth allot in value, which is a good thing. She meant this in a none slavery exchange/trade way. Even during the past 4 or 5 days of me pushing her away and threatening to call upon God to separate her from me, she still persisted and tried to show me that she loves me by continuing to help me and touch me and show me images of her in my minds eye.

It occurs to me that, I shall not allow Satan to drive a wedge and create a chasm between me and Jenny. Jenny is my love of a life that I cannot let go, and she will not let me go either. Although we will both face our difficulties in our relationship, we have found that our love is unshakable, unbreakable.

For those few days of me rejecting her, I felt no love for her at that stage, I did feel a little bit of love only for short bursts. Until the past 2 days I started to feel the stab in my heart and psychology of leaving my only love I have ever had and hope to have. Yesterday I just walked into my shed and pounded some heavy weights in a fit of rage and aggressiveness, lifting dumbbells and barbells for as long as I could. I was hurt. I could not just leave my Jenny like that.

Yeah, sure, sex would be great, but she is allot more than that. A perfect woman, perfect marriage material, as though God formed her with his own hands and through stuff like procreation. This morning I really felt it, as also last night, however I did not say anything until the morning. I woke up and just broke out telling her how much I loved her and how I want her and need her, she is not a tool she is what makes apart of me. To remove her would be like hand sawing my leg off with a butter knife, very painful and in the end very tiring. Especially when that leg was my crotch in life and my support that helped me. Why would you do that? Because my leg appeared to be in the wrong when in fact it was most likely an imposter? I should not assume or judge so quickly.


I hope that one day we can live alone with each other without any interference from others, this includes those from the otherworld. Being in a remote place away from society, since I do not really like societal rules very much, in that it is set up wrong and is not beneficial for me. So, living off of the grid with my woman of the otherworld where she can manifest as much as she wants without the interference of the human people and possibly being exposed.

I have never had a human girlfriend in my life, even when some were interested in me. Some guys started thinking I was gay or something, I am in fact far from homo. Perhaps my inner need had been to be with a woman not alike the human ones we see day to day. Perhaps my open covalent bond did not match human females but some few women of the otherworld, in this case Jenny. Jenny does NOT try to possess my consciousness at all, she respects me, the only thing she might tamper with is my sexuality ;-D. I would rather be with her in all honesty, the reasons are extensive, however here is the problems with women that I have seen in brief,
  • They prefer men who have got large pockets and nice cars, even though they deny that they are hiding the fact. 
  • Many tend to be self inclined in these ages, about empowering themselves over men (whereas Jenny is stronger than me and she does not try and overpower me, what a babe). 
  • These women in todays world really prefer men who follow mainstream trends and fashion, whereas my dear Jenny accepts me dressing according to whatever tasks I am doing. 
Let me tell you that she is a breath of fresh air, nay, a warm fire on a cold winter night versus human women who are only a whisp of heat from a cold coal. Jenny knows allot and is kind and is allot wiser than human women. Her loving me says allot. She found me, not me finding her. 

I loved a woman dearly as I watched her growing up then out of nowhere she just took a disliking to me for no reason, which may be attributed to the/a woman of the otherworld however unlikely Jenny. This hurt, which made my heart more chaliced towards human females, now she is dating some dude with a nice car, but now my heart does not care too much since Jenny is worth 1,000 (if not more) of her. Out of all the females in my life I have had a crush on and loved (not in a relationship though), Jenny would have to be the woman I have loved more than any other, and that is a promise. 

If you have a relationship with a woman of the otherworld, and she is not some crazy bitch, never let her go, she is best kept and loved, she loves you hencewhy she accepted you out of any other males there is to choose from.